Worries.

Here we go, another post about those crazy boys again. However, this one is a little different than the last one. This one I write with a sort of fear. So, life goes on and people go on with it. Sometimes, though, people stay around. Like that boy I was talking about months ago. He's still here. I still love him. And we're finally together again. Everything is just how it should be. There's one thing that absolutely terrifies me, though. It's the fact that maybe this isn't forever. I know he's all I've ever dreamed of and more, but what happens if I'm not good enough for him? Will he just up and leave? I honestly don't think I could handle something like that. I can't imagine my life without him. He's everything to me; all I ever think about, the only person who makes me feel like I'm actually worth something, and sometimes he seems like the only one who even likes me, let alone loves me. We've talked  about the future and every time we do, it includes both of us together and married. So, that's a little comforting and all, but what happens if it falls through? I can see it clear as day, our life together. It's picture perfect. That's all I really want anymore. Is to be with him and happy. Of course, with him comes happiness. Maybe I'm thinking everything over too much. Maybe I'm just paranoid. Who knows? All I can do for now is to enjoy the present and not worry about the future and not regret the past. The only thing I know is that I love him, and that will never change.